If a problem occur, would you likely sweep it under the carpet? To me, I won't. I'll act as if I'm sweeping underneath the carpet. But I'll eventually solve the problem.

Marital Problems

I'm always the one doing all the settlement.. Now, I rest my case. Loads of counsellors. Family please do preach the children on wad is good for them. Like as if I'm not included. I do always being preached.. yeah I know.. As for the people out there who don't know the devil part of me... Yeah.. THIS Devil wears, Carlo Rino I do misbehave behind my parents.

A part of me want to go to that devil. But I rethink again. Not worth wasting my life pubbing, drinking, smoking. I turn that devil into a fairy... Life has been so butterfly... The first try of drinking was so sucky. I don't like it anymore. I hate pubs and alcohols even with wine and stuff.. First and the last time tried. Yikes. I SUPER HATE IT..

Like I really care... Haha.. OMG... BOA Song should be played in Jennifer's Body.. BOA's EAT You Up... Yeah... She eat the boys up for sure... But she can't eat my Changmin up.. I'll make sure she stays away from him.

DBSK... I love u so much. My gosh. I know all the oppas have been so tired. practising, dancing, composing.. all their life.. I really love them from my blood cells in my body till the tip of my hairs... Their efforts have not gone to waste. Yunho oppa, even though the drama you stared in not high rating on tv, many will buy the drama. We rather keep for ourselves rather than watching you on tv for a short while.. Always keep the faith.

Changmin-ah... Never give up! I'm always rooting for you! Waiting for u, forever.. Don't tire urself up too much.. If I were to be there, I'll cook for you for daily meals, make sure you have proper meals.. No Person is perfect in this world.

HyunJae..<3 Changmin..

Labels: When this is IT...

♥ 10/28/2009 11:43:00 AM

Sigh... Orchard is damn upgrading.. I've tasted the dangoes!! and when I see ION Orchard.. I was like OMG.. all the posh life branded stuff... I'm still a young lady who is new to working world and not enough to earn these stuff.. okay let me list down and restrict my list of purchasing things these days..

1. Handphone bill


2. My reserved weighing scale


3. My transportation fare

I don't know what else to think of buying.. haha.. Just full stop at the moment. Then, the stupid NTUC card would be deducting from my acct every 27th.. gah.. Singapore is all money,money,money, money.. Even you have 4k as ur salary... zzz... road tax, housing bills: water, electric, gas, internet, homephone,.. wads more if I have credit cards. Sigh! I would love to own the lady's card or metro card or whatsoever card but BILLS.. I would be shouting... "NNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" haha... with the dramatic effect of shrinking.

Sigh... bills are bills. Debts are debts... sigh...

For the love of god.. my laptop is currently have incomplete keyboard... and my joint(L) for my monitor came off... yeah.. sigh.. maintenance will be very high.. zzz.. or else I'll look for another computer.. ZZ... and I know my dad would be mad if I were to get mini lappys... cos.. the screen is bad for my eyes.. gah.. Bt I know the text can be enlarged for safety reason.. It won't be puny.. haaa....

I need window vista.. I'm inlove with it.. but XP oso of no Problem. Oh well, TechFreak. I can't say I'm not one if I need a phone with touchscreen and WIFI. haha.. Now current phone is semi touch phone.. and it's overly senstive.. and I've sent like over 100 blank messages.. LOL.. I better carry a pouch for the touch screen phone.. haha.. I remembered that my boss phoned me because it was like 80 messages I sent blank.. hahaha... =X...

Oh well, whatever it is.. I'm currently not happy with mum. That incident reoccured again and I am really like for real? I'm played twice? My 1st brother is not helping. He is really asking me to fill up the application form for the job that he wanted. He asked me what his dad's birthday.. and he guess it's April. Wth.. for 16 years living in the same roof as him and he don't know his father birthday? I was really upset. He knows my birthday, he knows my mother's birthday. I was like suddenly tell myself where is he actually along the way? Perhaps, the process along the way went wrong...

Whatever lah.. I can't be bother since nobody bother abt me.. My cleanliness of the room is already A-okay... and they still like act whatever... I just can't tahan the situation.. Perhaps, because of the youngest having exams.. I think I should go out and play.. and I don't know who I'll go and play.. perhaps go gym and go workout...

and play swimming pool... I want the water around me.. I love water.. and I hate snakes... I hate skins of the reptiles... it was since the day I went to snake farm in thailand...

Sigh...

I should go off... nites..

Hyun_Jae..

Labels: stop ogling at me...

♥ 10/18/2009 10:21:00 PM

When I look back, I found myself with despicable guys which actually had themselves involve with a gf and still flirting with me, still playing around and actually, they tell me they are committed to their gfs. And I'm still naive as can be. I have become people's 3rd party before. again. again. & again. I'm telling you that it does hurt. It does.

I'm breaking apart, actually. I tell myself, "Just be myself. Just be patient. Just think of myself. Just not to fall for someone who is married and someone who is attached. Don't go beyond what you can handle." But hewhomidunnohisname caught me off guard. Perhaps, he's always smiling and grinning. & painfully I know setakat situ sahaja(only limited to that point of time). Because he has a GF. Because I know he has no where for me. Because I know that he should concentrate more on his GF rather than grinning, smiling, kept stealing glances, kept staring at me..

The whole of last week, he has that feeling that, I'm trying to get far from him. I know because aft closing he has that kind of attitude that is so readable which the aura I felt was saying,"You wanna get away from me? Fine. My GF is here. She is way better den you." and now, the tension between my shop and his just now, was so quiet. So quiet that, nobody from the neighbours dare to talk anything to him. Now, I'm avoiding him. I'm in practically bad mood because it has been one and half months I didn't get my PERIOD.

I hope everything will be all right. Everything have to be alright. I will only fall once and if there is another time. Something must be wrong with me. Matters of the heart are actually, one weakness that I can't figure out. I've seen weddings, I've seen kids. AND I DO WANT KIDS OF MY OWN. I DO WANT HAPPINESS OF MY OWN. The thing is, I have to find the right guy and now, people have been talking, I'm going to come of age of 21. And it's the age that is eligible to get married and have kids. I don't want my dreams to shatter because of this. I have to get up and keep on moving. Till I've seen the shadows of the goal that I've been waiting for.

I have to give up on love. I have to sacrifice for studies. I have to make myself numb and continue with my voyage..

That is how, HJ needs to be. All that she knows is, She only loves one man named, Shim Changmin.

HJ <3

Labels: flowers with petals falling...

♥ 10/14/2009 09:57:00 PM

OMG.. last night. I work with the only thorn in the Guardian. HEHE.. XD.. He is sweet, cute and... OMG he is 26 and Myanmar-ese. aknvlkwdnfjbhfbefk...

Perhaps I should turn to him? O.O

GAH!! and he is in NTU studying Biomedical Engineering, 1st year. I was asking him whether he knows Adel. haha.. I think he doesn't. LOLs. Well the guy in the famous amos. THAT GUY. hahaa.. I think he quitted. He didn't come to work for so long. and today he came back and meet up his colleagues/rather ex-colleagues. They were talking about whatever-they-care-stuffs and suddenly he looks at me and meet my eyes and grin. I was like,"ERM, WTH??" I think his colleagues and the guys from the restaurant saw me and our cute new guy flirting.. ahaha.. and told him. LOLs.

Well, yeah. Things have been so interesting here. So I'm intending to stay until when I think I can't cope with the job.Well,it'seasysaidthendone.. :(

Moreover, I still can't make up my mind wad to buy for my mum's birthday!! or... I'll be chipping in with my auntie tdy.. in JB.. and I need to go off by 5.00pm to JB!! GAH! And... Lately I missed my last assignment for madrasah. DAMN IT!! I can't get off for this week's english classes and madrasah's classes... PLUS, THEY HAVE FILLED IN MY WEEK, THIS WHOLE WEEK. GAH!

Whatever it is... I love all of you! From, the cells of my blood to the tip of my hairs, I love all of you, exceptionally, hypocrites, backstabbers and so what it may be. I still love heart breakers because they give me lessons that I should follow. So the next time, I shall be the heart breaker.

It's KARMA beb! It's KARMA!!

What goes around comes, around

Hyun Jae signs off... With a KISS~

Labels: in the end it doesn't even matter...

♥ 10/05/2009 01:00:00 AM

Oh well, my title notes it all. I'm Currently super lazy. Super merepek Number one, Case hentam batu aje. I've been not so rebellious, so prim and proper.. has become alil bad.. LOLs.. I guess the mid nites misses...

I missed the pharmacist. I missed the Spartan midnite person. haha.. I missed my girlfriends. I know I kept having greetings coming in. Bt there is not a single greetings I sent out to all of the greetings replied. I'm lazy plus chop. haha... I want to make cake also.. I was like gah.. forget it.. bt I know I have to.. because.. Everybody has brought their share to work and I have not brought mine. haha...

GAH!.. After finishing my tidied up room, I feel I want to stay in my room for a long2 time!!.. So spacious!! without the cupboard.. I have not even paint the room.

I love the posters I pinned up.. <3<3 Changmin-oppa... Everyone around me surprised that I'm listening to KPOP recently. I was like "Why? Can't I like HIM? CAN'T I LOVE HIM?" Just because I'm a malay wearing tudung shud not love him? Why.. Who KNOWS HE PREFERS ME without tudung better than anyone else.. haha.. Okay.. I have a hunch my partner is an Aries/Aquarius. haha..

SUNGGUHmerepek.com>>>>> haha....

I love the girls team now. I'm in love with the songs I put up in the blog now. I lil cute and a lil rebel. Yeah.. I'm so love.. and I DID DYE MY HAIR!!.. yeah.. I tell you so... I'm going swimming already.. woo hoo!!... REBEL binte BAIK!

I can say that, they will see.. less of my face.. this month.. Which is actually good plus bad.. Saham makin low beb!!.. I'm going to see how it goes...

Sigh.. dismissing or.. staying...

I dunno.. STILL.. I have to be happy while it last..

HyunJAE...

♥ 9/27/2009 10:21:00 PM

Ello... I know I'm not supposed to be here blogging since my room is in a turbulence situation. It's crampy and utterly very messy!!


I'm taking out my shelf one by one and my mum come yelling at me to weigh the kuih ingredients. Looking at my room state now, I guess I can only make cake batik specially for my friends rayer week. hehe... So just look forward okay? My rayer this year very relax.



Thanks ____, for giving me the very early wish for my birthday. You broke my record for being the first person, by 2 months earlier. ^^ I love the vidclip. Yeah I know you have no Korean guys for my present.. HEHE... Anywy, those pictures you put, I really miss those times. It's just if the things that supposed not to happen, didn't happen. Things don't turn out to be this way and I thank God that He guides me, and ensures me to mix with an excellent circle of friends.



I'm planning not to be a super woman.. I just had a bruise on my knee by a rack of my shelf fell onto it and I was like ouch!! I've just dismantled my bookcase... and the stuffs I put including my unfolded clothes are all in one big mess. Lucky, I group my clothes together. I need to throw some of my clothes all tattered and torned like the Flintstones clothings. ahaha...


Oh well.. My baju rayer dah siap!! YAYNESS!!... I love that.. I'll wear the heels, I wore for prom and my clutch from prom. :) I save all the money from buying new stuffs... =) I'll be recycling my bags.. from the previous hari raya. I'm craving for dangoes and I won't have any till I get my pay and also after paying my huge lum sum of starhub bill. I'm saving, I'm saving. I'll starve myself..

Anywy, I seriously like the guys working in front of my shop. But I'm not making any serious moves or flirty moves cos I know, I'll be falling for a bad guy. Who will make my nafsu worse.. haha... If you know what I mean.

But I'll stick to My Changmin. Changmin-ah... Sarangheyo.. Na, kidarige. Naneun saranghamnida...

<3<3 Changmin

Okay... I'm back to packing..

Hyun Jae..

Labels: loves him for wad he is ...

♥ 9/15/2009 09:29:00 PM

I'm currently at home watching Dream (SBS) featuring Kim Bum, Son Dambi and Joo Jin Mo. I love the drama especially the main objectives.


Once your dream is crushed, you have to build it once more and not to dwell it for long. Sometimes dreams can be just come true when things passes. What are dreams? It's not easy to full fill a dream. Against all odds but towards humanity. Some where along the line, opportunity passes by and sometimes it will linger there for you to pick them. But somehow or rather, they might disappear in amidst of your job findings. However, those fortunates might be worthwhile.


A friend recently met me and I forgot her name. It was my secondary school mate. We wasn't in the same class but we are in the same student council cohort. This is really embarrassing but yeah, as I've said, I remember faces, I just can't remember the name. I find it hard to recall and it's as though I'm struggling in pain remembering. I saw Zheng Jiang which was Sumarni's crush. Then, I remembered his height. I'm still taller than him. Hehe...


I'm working like mad. I'm working like a dog. I won't accept last minute request. Once I'm at home I'll be relaxed. I'm always spending my time sleeping to make up the rest of the time when I'm awake. My cerebellum is very tired. Very. If I reject your request, you fill my other day that I'm not working, isn't it? You know, I really thank Allah for not having Friday and Saturday working. Those days, I really need to catch up for my loss of rest. My body is aching badly. especially my back. Since I have a huge history with my back. I hurt my back 3 times. I think I don't need to tell. I guess you all have know it. I let you recap, 1st incident, I fell from a super high bed, falling backwards, 2nd incident, I fell infront of the bus and 2 person fell onto me, 3rd incident, my bike incident I hurt my parietal right side of the head and it did swell and I hurt my back. I cracked my ribs and when it's cold, my ribs ache. Now not often already. I take in Calcium so much. Now I kept chewing Vit C pastilles Scotts. Worth buying $7.20 only for 50 pastilles.. =)


The only Vit C I'm taking to improve my immunity. =) Still my nasal congestion is not improve because of tiredness. Yeah. My mum told me don't take cold stuff anymore. This raya, I'm opting for hot coffee or hot milo or hot tea. =) I'm afraid of getting overdoses of Vit C. I think it's best for me to take those pastilles because it's for kids. At least, I can eat without worrying. haha...


Anywy.. I'm going to Dye my hair today.. but It seems my scalp is not okay at the moment.. I'm itching. Okay.. I'm going off...


Hyunjae loves Changmin-oppa..

Labels: Love him so much...

♥ 9/07/2009 01:54:00 PM